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oli/madi ([personal profile] runawayballista) wrote2013-04-25 11:41 am

[FST] neither sink nor swim.

neither sink nor swim.
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front breaking // megumi hayashibara
[lyrics & tl]
tooi mirai he no mayoi yori mo
ima me no mae ni aru genjitsu
hitotsu hitotsu kudaita nara
tada no suna ni kawaru
kamaiccha irarenai
shoumen toppa de ikou
instead of having doubts about the far-off future
if i smash through the reality right before my eyes, little by little,
it turns to nothing more than sand
i don't need to care how it looks
let's go breaking through the facade

There's a reason Carolina is number one. She might have things in the past that weigh her down, that occupy her mind, but she's focused, determined, and she recognizes the potential in herself and her team. And every action hero needs an action theme, after all.
gunmetal tiara // torley wong

[ instrumental ]
Carolina is the one who gets things done. She's not just a leader, she's a model soldier, and in a time of war and desperate conflict, that focus is valuable. But there's a danger to that kind of single-minded determination.
girl with one eye // florence and the machine
i said, hey, girl with one eye
get your filthy fingers out of my pie
i said, hey, girl with one eye
i'll cut your little heart out 'cause you made me cry
Enter the usurper. When Tex steps onto the scene, she steals the spotlight and the success, and Carolina will be damned if she lets anyone outdo her. She's the leader of this team.
baby just wants // information society
living in a powderkeg
and giving off sparks
baby thinks that too might light
is a lot like dark
With Tex on the scene, an ever-looming threat, all Carolina can think about is the next fight, the next opportunity to prove herself. It becomes everything she stands for, more than herself or her team. And now she knows what she has to do.
one more time with feeling // regina spektor
you thought by now you'd be so much better than you are
you thought by now they'd see that you had come so far
and the pride inside their eyes would synchronize
into a love you've never known
so much more than you've been shown
That's when she goes for the AI implantation. Two AI will most certainly give her an edge over Tex, and she'll come out on top this time. She'll make everybody proud, this time.
oh no! // marina and the diamonds
i know exactly what i want and who i want to be
i know exactly why i walk and talk like a machine
i'm now becoming my own self-fulflled prophecy
oh, oh no, oh no, oh no no
Carolina's sinking quickly. She can't afford to lose now, not when she'd been so focused, her goals so clear, but now, all of her worst fears are being realized. She can't stop -- she has to keep moving, and just hope she can keep her head above water.
accidntel deth // rilo kiley
and it's neither sink nor swim
at least the water's beneath your chin
there's blood spilled on the floor
everyone's staring at you, what for?
till you realize the blood is probably yours
It sneaks up on her, the way it all falls apart so quickly. It seems like everyone's realized it before her. Before she knows it, she's trying desperately to get away, but Maine's hand around her throat is far too strong.
help i'm alive // metric
help i'm alive
my heart keeps beating like a hammer
hard to be soft
tough to be tender
come take my pulse the pace is on a runaway train
She survived, because that's what she does. And now she's got Wash and Epsilon and a bunch of sim soldiers to help her out, to do what needs to be done, and this time, she won't show any weakness.
"m" is for morphine // world/inferno friendship society
i believe the unthinkable will come true
and i'm watching you
every man for himself
all against you and god against
Carolina only has one goal now: kill the Director, whatever it takes. He'll pay for everything he's done -- to her, to Wash, to Epsilon, all of them. But for her, it's more personal than anyone could imagine.
drove through ghosts to get here // 65daysofstatic

[ instrumental ]
It's been a long and arduous road -- she's had to acknowledge some difficult truths, had to dredge up painful old memories, and by the time she gets to her father, she can see that he's already paid for his crimes. All she can do now is grant him this last mercy.
gone daddy gone // gnarls barkley
beautiful girl, lovely dress
fifteen smiles, oh yes
beautiful girl, lovely dress
where she is now i can only guess
It's time for her to move on, her and Epsilon both. There's nothing left for them here. So she leaves Blood Gulch and Freelancer behind, going out into the world in the hopes of doing some good for once, like she'd always meant to.